One think I know I cant deny =] Is the way you make me feel inside The smiles that hurt my cheeks are smiles You give that (maybe) last for weeks? The day we met,,, Just Days ago Is just a memorie i like to show.. In my head i watch it play over again, day by day Next to me all i see Is you starring back at me Buy why do some of these butterflies Make me wanna cry? Is what you give real or fake? To the thoughts insde... Please die? I saw you again today It was hard,,, So i still didnt say... Real or fake? Tell me!! Give or take!! I wanna see what you dont show I wanna know... So??????
YOU GUESSED IT I STILL DONT KNOW IF THIS KID IS LAGIT...
I only have one true fear.. Being used... AGAIN>>>> I dont want that no now with you thats what i fear even more than my retard and maskott phobias... ANd more than his doll phobia... that is a qualitie that intregs me much =]] i like it
Anyways letts thing??? SHall we?? WHat is a good.... Fantasy????? haha xD
I like the skys in the morning to look like they are burning.. And i like the nights to be long and slow, as in the time to go.. The time we spend on weekends, with good friends is time spent making momories or maybe enemys? It is not time wasted unless we are wasted I wanna know whats on your mind.. I wanna know are you mine? I dont want that but i cant help it... In you I see someone who is nothing but could be everything.. Tell me again why you sang to me? A lullaby? It seems like a goodbye... Tell me once... Why you chose me? Tell me twice are you just being nice? Am i just a Toy to this game? Or am i really what you wanted and aimed Please dont hurt me.. Thats all i ask.. Please just tell me.. will this last? Breaking out mother did not see.... Breaking back in i felt so free =] This is how summer should be.....
Hello =] I know i have been gone much from all of my blogs.. Its because its summer bitchess!!! And i already think i found my summer love <3 His names logan and i have a kinda largish crush on this kid... But idk if he really likes me or is just playing me... Its scary... I dont wanna be used again... That fear will always be there... Anyways I snuck out and he came and picked me up.. We went into town to this (party) kinda and we did some stuff.. Just the two of us lol xD *wink* and sooo.... yeah he brought me home and we stayed outside on my road in his car.. Moved the party to the backseat and again did some... errr stufff.. haha anyway i had a great night and am having a great summer =]
Me? Who am I exactly? Do you remember who I used to be? Along time ago? Then I changed? I thought for better... You thought for worst.. I did things for the greater good for the fact I wanted to be great not just good.. You said i was stupid.. You said im ruining my life... And YOU forced me to the state im in now.. You took my friends from me.. And now What I miss the most, what you made me give up is what im working on getting back..
When you (fixed) me i became a horible thing.. Where i lost myself in constantly presenting what ever face you belived everyone else wanted to see Rather than that of my own..
But listen to ME now! Those things took time love.. Those things i did to create myself to a time in my life where i was happy took Back Bone You say i was stupid... You say i wasted a time in my life on pointless shit Well that pointless shit made me happy It made me... me And i dont care who you think i should be anymore Im welcoming friends i miss sooo much back into my life and you cant stop me.. You cant boss me anymore..
Im just gonna say this.. Andys girl is a FUCKING MONSTER! and i think shes back or on her way back to a time in her life she was care free and happy. When she was a "bad" kid Hanging with the 'Bad' kids who drink and do drugs... haha xD there nothing like that you wouldnt know....
So dont judge me thats all i have to say and dont try to fix me.. Im gonna be happy again and i cant wait. <3333
Tell me you love me and it will be alright =] I doubt it.. But.. let me think about it.. Your in a permanant spot right now and i cant change that.. so it looks as though you are gonna be around and some what in my life.. as much as i dont want that i cant help but have part of me that misses so so much to the point i cant take anymore and I burst into tears. You stole my house key today in the rain and haha wow =] your stupid... we had a nice long talk about where u went wrong. You ask.. how can i fix this? The truth is you cant fix what has already been broken And ill say it again i dont want you to fix it... Im just ramballing on here but i need someone to talk to and since i cant talk to family about this and friends because they hate you i must blog about my love.. my hate and everything inbetween for u..
Last year i was ready confident and so so so positive i would get on the team witch.... I was wrong... I got pushed out because of this girl who had been dancing for one year and was really bad and smelt like tuna... She wasnt even flexible.. I cryed for i have been dancing for years and everyone got my hopes up telling me i was so good and your gonna get on the team.. Thanks guys,,,, I didnt get on and your boosting my confidence made me cry
But thats ok.. For i know now that i am a better dancer and will try my best this year because theres nothing i want more than this,, I improved so much even though i was good last year im better and im sure the judges were just gelous of my hair so they decided to piss me off and put the tuna girl in =]
Anyways wish me luck? 3 days till tryouts begin..... <3